It’s only been in the deepest sleep that I’ve seen tomorrow
It’s only been when you’re far away that I see your face

With every emotion conflicted
From the past and the present colliding
Our love-hate relationships reflected
In the volumes of the secrets we’re hiding

We’re better off lost than left behind
With the creatures of habit that survive
By coming to the rescue to keep us crawling back
For the sustenance they provide

What was lost has been retrieved
Deconstructed reconceived
So throw away the insecurity
There’s no room left for what they had come to believe

How often we’ve denied
That it’s time to say goodbye
To the ghosts of the ones we’ve left behind
And to the spirits that they invite
Our recollections of paradise
Are full of holes and full of lies
But the love for life our hope revives
Is better than safe passage through the fire

We’ve made it this far punch-drunk and seeing stars
Revisiting memories camouflaging battle-scars
The only option left to choose we’re guaranteed to lose if we don’t start

Compensating for the times we’ve never laid to rest
Captivated by the love we’ve labored to forget
Complicated by the ones who know too much to know what is best

Countdown now or it’ll be too late to turn around
We made it here in the nick of time for a tandem leap of faith
We’re headed straight for another stage and this is it our axial age

If it takes more than a lifetime to capture
There’s no sense in waiting until we recover
The time we’ve surrendered will never get any closer

If it takes more than a lifetime to capture
There’s no sense in waiting until we’ve recovered
It’s over and still we keep missing the future
Forever is still out there begging to be discovered

Polarized by the sunlight we woke up in a sea of black-lights
And they’re still evolving wrapping around you and I

I’ve never forgotten the last minutes we spent
Facing each other before the winter set in
When the only thing that mattered
Was our slowly unfolding dream

It’s only been in the deepest sleep that I’ve seen tomorrow
It’s only been when you’re far away that I’ve seen your face
It’s only when you’re far away that I see your face

The first steps have been taken and they served to change the view
But there’s one bridge still left burning leaving only this path to choose
Though it may be higher and featureless its boundaries are limitless

How often we’ve denied
That it’s time to say goodbye
To the ghosts of the ones we’ve left behind
And to the spirits that they invite
Our recollections of paradise
Are full of holes and full of lies
But the love for life our hope revives
Will someday be worth the fight it’s been
To have this chance tonight

performance:

jason harvey: bass guitar

david beck: drums

mohadev bhattacharyya: guitar

jon beal: keyboards | voice

composition/production:

jon beal: composition | recording

david beck: composition

mohadev bhattacharyya: composition | recording

jason harvey: composition | mixing | production | recording

extra composition/production:

dennis harvey: mastering | mixing